I'll end the night with this..

Since I am very inspired to write again, I typed these lines the other night. lol. :

''I just can't see a bright future with that person. I love her, I really do. But I just can't be with her, there's just love, emotions and feelings and I guess those factors are not enough to feed me.  she likes what she is now, she's contented with what she is now, She's devoted with what she is now and I dont like that. I dont want to change someone for the benefit of me. I dont want to see myself walking on the street with her forever. I have this dream and its good that I top them out of the list.''

Huhu. And I obviously am not the 1st person. I used a guy okay? :(

1st of June and crying

I should have been very busy working on my romantic poem when the world suddenly brought me back into the past and ruin my supposed plans for this afternoon. I run to the lord again, In tears and in despair. I truly, madly asked Him why:

Lord,

 why do I always feel like this, trap, drowned and down in times when I already found myself a little hope? When will I ever be truly  happy again? When can I possibly get out of this massive darkness? I want to see the light , be there, stay there, live there. I just want to see myself moved on Lord, I dont want to judge the past any longer, I dont want to lived with all the hatred and burden and sorrow in this world. I just want to forget them, be happy and start over. :( Your love is untimely as well as your plans and your miracles, I am not rushing you. I am not asking you to make things easier for me nor question You and your desired plans for me. I just can't help but cry and ask why. Please show me the answers, Im in despair:(

These are not the exact same words that I actually told God in a queer silence. Just like How I used to, I checked His words again and tried to find the answers for myself: Words and photos via searchquotes.com: