What I wrote on my journal last night:
The thing is that I like you but feelings are not enough reason to hold on. My emotions are far beyond reliable and I dont think that it is enough for me to justify my confusions. Im not sure if I am scared or I'm just not risky enough to tie myself up again. I dont want to gamble everything that has been amassed, I dont want to lose nor gain anything, To be a bit more precise, I dont want to have anything but my God, my family and my friends . There are things that I badly want to ask why like How can some people swear on a place that does not revolve on a constant phase? How can some people actually assert that they can endure everything in the name of 'love' when love as it is is unconquerable? Why do some people still take the risk of loving and taking chances notwithstanding the anguish they feel? Cant we all just lay down, relax and look at the wonderful things the world has to show? Can't we just smile and praise God for He has given us all the odds to be happy again? Why look for something that will only turn your world upside down? Why say forever when forever in the first place doesnt exist for this world is not undying? Think about it. I dont have an impulsive heart, I just think that it is better to stay away from grief and sorrow than look for a remedy to cure an unhappy heart
